She had returned to the lands, though something didn't feel right. She had left pissed off, hurt, angry,
a whole range of emotions that changed her...though for better or for worse, she didn't know. She had tried searching for her brother Riv, but to her dismay she could not find his scent anywhere. She didn't know exactly what she would have done if she found him...whether she'd apologize yet for shunning him and being angry with him for everything. Maybe he had left too...? Just like their father. Just like...everyone. Amber gaze kept on the floor, her silent steps accompanied by those of her companion who stalked along beside her. The she-wolf was no longer young, and it seemed as if it were only yesterday that her mother had gone and killed herself. That her father had just left. That her brother had just raised his pack. But Rhavaniel had reminded her that it had all happened a long time ago, and yet some of it still felt so fresh in her mind.
She wondered sometimes if there were things she could have done to change any of it, but thinking back, she didn't think there was. Her mother had lost it. Her father had proven to be someone that she couldn't depend on. Choosing to go against their values and then abandoning them all to fend for themselves. Ultimately leaving her and her siblings without any parents. Without anyone else but themselves. She had struck out alone with only Rhavaniel for company. The others last she knew, had stuck together.
She didn't realize where she was going nor where she ended up until Rhavaniel had uttered a warning growl, and only then did Holly look up and become aware of her surroundings. Somewhere ahead of her, she could hear the distant crash of a waterfall. It was almost night fall, so the sky was an array of oranges and pinks giving way to purples and blues. Looking up, she could see a few bats winging overhead in search of their nightly prey, and around her the sound of crickets and other night creatures. Where was she? Moving a little further, she detected the scent of a packs borders. But not just any pack, no. It was the pack that she knew where her siblings had been last...she sucked in a sharp breath, feeling something close to a certain sense of longing in her chest. Were they still here?Would they forgive her if they were? So many questions turned in her mind, and half of her was afraid of what might happen. What if they weren't here? What if they decided to leave too? Sure, she had left, but she had every intention of returning after she had managed to calm herself down to some extent.
Turning to gaze at her companion for a moment, Rhava gave an encouraging nod to Holly. The girl looked back towards the borders, but still...she couldn't find it in herself to call for anyone. What if her siblings hated her for being angry with them? For blaming her brother? With these thoughts in mind, she simply stood there as the sky gave way to darkness. Maybe...maybe she should turn back and leave. Maybe they'd be better off without her...
