I feel the rising sun, I let it fill my lungs
09-18-2017, 02:58 PM
Caelum sighed deeply, settling down to curl up where she was and relax a while. There was no need to rush her departure, so the pale woman rested her chin on her paws and gazed out at the land around her. The West Wind's lands had been nice, but this place had so many unique places and stunning sights to see, the more she adventured the more she became content with her situation. Idly glancing around as her thoughts wandered the woman would consider what lay ahead. Things were good with Zephyr, enough so that she didn't want to push it by asking the questions she'd held onto. In that area of her life she was happy to let the past be the past. But with her daughter, Cae recognized she still needed to try and repair things, even if it meant airing out some unsightly emotions they'd both left to fester. Maybe there was some selfishness in her motives. What if the girl decided she was well and truly done with her mother? Cae supposed she'd have to let it be then, though she did hope thins wouldn't come to that. It would be nice to have her child back again, and she suspected Avani with her gentle soul would love to meet her newest siblings when they arrived. The figure far enough and the wind blowing in a funny direction so she wasn't able to catch their scent. The other wolfs' presence was brought to her attention via the feeling of eyes on her. Dragging herself to a sitting position again, Caelum turned so her own ice-hued eyes could seek out the one who she felt nearby. Her breath caught in her throat, held fast though why she did not know. Grey and white fur, a blur to her at first. A single tear fell, and she didn't know why until she'd blinked it away and could see more clearly. No way. How many times was this going to happen? The rising excitement she felt in her chest was reaching a fever pitch and only held back from becoming entirely overwhelming by the mounting uncertainty and disbelief that chased it. At first Caelum could only think that if what she was seeing was real, she was the worlds worst mother. That did it. That feeling stomped all over everything and left a hollow pit in her stomach that had her vowing to never again let her emotions overcome her. Never again let her focus become so skewed that she'd make mistakes like this. Finally with a soft grunt she pulled herself to a standing position and gazed out at the girl with the pink eyes, ears flicking back uncertainly. Would she be rejected again? Some self-loathing part of Cae felt like she deserved to be, but the rest simply ached to repair the increasingly obvious damage done to her family, her pack, and her children. Caelum wanted to speak, but words failed her. Words alone could never convey the depth of emotion within her, and she was sure that it was the same story for the rest of those who survived that attack. Rose, Avani, Zephyr, and even Inverno and herself. There was too much pain, magnified by the distance and time. Caelum wondered if she would recover her strength in the presence of her children as she had finally done with Zephyr. SPEAK |
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