Lose my Mind

He didn't understand. The whine in his voice almost made her feel bad but she wasn't going to let herself forget that she was nothing more than the sister he had to care for for the rest of her life most likely. She was certain he would rather live without her by her side. Same as Nova. She wasn't even fully a she. She was a freak. It hadn't escaped her how much of a freak she was. Burdening her family wasn't something she was willing to do ever so this was the only option.

Her ears pinned. Did she need to get aggressive? She didn't like the thought of that. "No, I'm just fine." she did her best to stay matter of fact. She wasn't sick in any way. Just trying to do what she thought was best. Did she know she was a raped child? No. If she did she would of left a long time ago so no one had to look at the abomination that shed was and know that she was brought from something horrid.

"I'm blind Chasm, not dumb. You and momma were talking about what to do with me. Cuz I'm a burden. I'm not like everyone else. I have to depend on you and bones to hunt for me, momma to protect me, and I'm not even sure I am a girl cuz i smell like both you and nova do. I'm a freak. A freak that you have to take care of instead of doing things for the pack. Its not fair to you, and your gods certainly made sure it's not fair to me!" she was yelling by the time she was done. Her eyes pricked with tears. She wanted to go home, but she knew she couldn't burden anyone again. Besides she couldn't find her way back if she tried. Was she angry? Yes. Though she didn't know who to be angry with. Was she tired of being the freak? Yes. Was she upset? Yes. So much so that she could feel the moisture on her cheeks from tears she tried to force down. She was different and it wasn't fair. Everyone even treated her differently than the other kids.

Nova was the only one that played with her. She was the runt and everyone treated her like she was porcelain. So what she couldn't play as rough as Azazel or play hide and seek cuz she was blind, but she still knew plenty of games she could play by listening and smelling.

In a sentence she felt alienated in her own family.