Memories Long Gone

He was lonely, but this time it was different. This time he could only blame himself for his solitude. What was wrong with him? He'd left Delaney, telling her that he had something personal to do, but he'd promised her he'd be back. In reality he'd had a panic moment. He'd gotten anxious that he was going to get close to her and that she'd leave him like Ray had. So logically the best course of action, in his mind at least, was to get away for a little while. Eventually he'd been gone for too long and he was painfully aware that he'd promised her he'd returned, and yet he felt like he'd disappointed her in the same way Ray had disappointed him. Rather than face seeing the pain that was inevitable (or anger if she was that type) he'd just stayed away. It'd be easier on her, right? Rather than having to deal with him if he had decided to go home.

Instead his paws had led him to the beach he'd once called home. He hadn't intentionally come here, but he supposed there was just subconscious part of his brain that wanted to come back here. It wasn't as though he'd wanted to, but he just couldn't let things go. He stared out at the waves as they lapped at the blackened shores. A soft sigh fluttered past his lips as every painful memory from this place came racing back to him. Playing with Ray on the beach, enjoying Glacier and Anais company, learning what a crab was from Voltage, and then ultimately getting into more trouble with Ray. A bitter chuckle escaped him as he thought about all the lies Ray had told him to get him to go on an adventure with her.

The nostalgia didn't last for long and he closed his eyes as the irritation came back. He felt broken and he hated it. He didn't want to be broken, but he didn't now how to fix it either. He'd been hurt far too many times by those closest to him though for him not to be the way he was. So now the question was, what was he supposed to do now? What was he supposed to do about Delaney? There were too many questions that he didn't have answers to.

"SPEAK"