Monsters Are Real
03-21-2018, 03:31 PM
(This post was last modified: 03-21-2018, 03:37 PM by Elias.)
Elias felt like eons had passed since he had last spoke, the time between it and Ace's response leaving him in a sense of full suspense as he leaned closer to his brother slightly, waiting as patiently as possible. When Ace let that small grin show, it brought life to Elias' skin- his whole body raising in little bumps that made his hackles prickle slightly from the overwhelming amount of emotions that one little, involuntary, gesture could cause. That grin was the same grin that came from his brother when they were close, when all they had to worry about was their training and who could outdo one another once their dad let them play.
He missed him, and that small smirk was enough to send not only a flood of nostalgia on him but to entice his excitement to hear about his sons. He tried his best to focus on the words that came from Ace thereafter because he truly was curious.. and he needed to focus and remember those words. His ears flicked as he strained to keep control of his thoughts, taking one deep breath to try and calm himself and focus on the here and now.
It did not take long before he was calm, as the words were easy for him to focus on. Soon, the usually flat lines that made up his inky lips were curving into a faint smile of their own as he listened to how strong his son had grown up to be. He had even led his own pack and had a brother that he relied on like Elias and Acere once had for each other when Elias reigned. And one of them was a great hunter? That certainly made him nearly swell with undeserved pride. There was only really one thing that Elias liked about himself, and that was his skill with hunting. For a moment, his brain fathomed a little fantasy where perhaps one day he and his hunter son would be able to track a bear together like Elias had once done with Ace. It was like history was rewritten, though.. his heart sank remembering that the son abandoned Dauntless just like Elias had abandoned Ruina. He hoped that it was not for the same reason and that his son was stronger than him... but... he sighed.
His square muzzle pointed downward, almost with guilt as Acere continued to talk about the women he'd harmed. He was listening, but his red eyes were nearly glistening. If wolves could cry, he might have even had a hard time holding tears back as the emotions started to swirl around in his brain, his former era of excitement ending as his short fur became sleek once again and he resumed his emotionless expression. "The harm... Ace? You know the harm that could happen... this demon inside of me, he does not care about others at all, he just.. wants and I could not stop him those nights. He took what he wanted from them, and two of them were so.. frail, and I harmed them. That is the harm, Ace..." despite the context of his words, every one was spoken with an eerie calmness and monotone structure as his eyes seemed less focused on Acere once again, his mind pulling him in and fully embracing him. He nearly growled out his last words, "But I do need to fix this.. it has been two years since I have surrendered to him."
He looked up to Ace now, with begging eyes as those pale 'brow dots rose with curiosity. "You can't leave me, Ace.. you can't. I know that I don't deserve anyone to be there for me, but you.. you have to stop me if it takes over again. You have to end this if I get weak again. I can not live with anymore nightmares, Ace.." his strong voice broke, choking up with his last words as his chest heaved heavy breaths. "I can't keep going with any more guilt, I can't hurt anyone else... I can't."
Disclaimer: Elias suffers from schizophrenia and occasionally has violent outbursts.
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