Ain't my fault it's all I got

*Mara* · 04-21-2018, 01:21 PM

It took a bit to catch her breath, to get her heart rate to slow so the organ wouldn't do something crazy like leap from her chest. The man spoke, he asked about her nightmares. How did she explain them? She didn't owe him an explanation, not really, but... What'd she have to loose by sharing? Nothing. Fine, why not.

Another steadying breath as her gaze went skyward and the woman settled back on the ground with a soft sigh. The stars twinkled above them, so distant from their suffering. "Lots of things. Mostly things I've done. Terrible stuff I didn't regret until one day I did." Her gaze lowered, fell to the earth like a falling star as her expression hardened in the darkness. "I was never good, and I never cared for the longest time. It was far too easy to not care, but my mind finally caught up with me and now-" She broke off, an alien yet crushing feeling of shame came down, flattening her beneath it's weight. What a pitiful creature she had become.

There was a lengthy stretch of silence after that, a silence where the woman struggled to find the words and the will to speak them. She was guilty of many crimes and to admit it aloud seemed like it would seal her fate, make her horribleness real. Mara pressed on in a hushed whisper, "I stole and fought and left others broken and battered in my wake. And now at night they haunt me, those I fought and siblings I abandoned, they take the form of my own children and eat away at my unconscious mind as vengeance."

"I think I deserve it."

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