If I can live through this
05-17-2018, 04:28 PM
Him mentioning his younger siblings made her remember the younger rainbow pups that she had remembered seeing at the last big pack meeting they had. Of course they would be much bigger now than her memory allowed for her to remember, but there had been quite a few of them if she remembered correctly. It was strange how she could live near all of them for so long but some how still go without really knowing any of them. The worries over her parents and siblings stretched as far back as she could really remember and that had dominated most of her attention. When the question turned back toward her she nodded with a bit of hesitation. "Yes, my parents and I left... We didn't request to leave, but I'm not sure if we'll go back or not. We originally left so that we could find my brothers while my parents were... were still able to," she said, stumbling over her own words a bit as she tried to find the easiest, least painful way to express what she meant. Her gaze shifted away from his for a moment. Even as she spoke she felt like she was saying too much, but it was the first time she had really given herself the opportunity to say it out loud. Hearing the words in her own ears made everything feel more real in a way that she wasn't certain she liked. "Neither one of them are in really great health so I think it was more important to them to find my brothers than it was to spend their days in Celestial. I just... don't know if I want to go back without them yet." The thought of being without them was something that was hard for her to swallow, but it was something that would find her far sooner than she would want. She shrugged a little, her gaze settling on his forepaws since she wasn't completely certain she could meet his gaze again just yet. She felt so vulnerable all of the sudden. It wasn't like she was usually this candid and open with anyone. Something about the fact that he was mostly a stranger made it seem like it was easier to tell him things that she hadn't told anyone else before. "I guess I'll wait and see what my brothers decide to do. I mean, I can't really live on my own all that well, so I guess they'll decide." Etain finally glanced back up to his eyes again with a slight smile. As optimistic as she tried to be around her abilities and her independence, that could only take her so far. She wasn't unrealistic when it came to these things. |