Never Going Back Again

*Ara* · 09-26-2018, 07:54 PM

Forgiveness wasn't something Ara had needed to grapple with much thus far in her life. There was only one wolf, one who's name she didn't even like to remember, that she had held a grudge against. Even despite the years she'd spent waiting for Novel, and all the hurt her disappearance had caused, she still couldn't bring herself to feel angry or wronged over it. No, there wasn't a single ounce of her that thought badly of her former mate. She had decided that she could empathize her choice to stay in her family's homelands - not enjoying the alternative, which was imagining that something awful had happened to her - and she couldn't fault her for it. If she'd been forced to choose between her own parents, if they had still been here, or Novel... well, she wasn't sure that would be the easiest choice. She had no doubt Novel's decision hadn't been an easy one, and it was immediately obvious that the weight of her decision had caused her pain, just as it had Ara.

The irony of Novel's return when she'd finally almost come to terms with her loss wasn't lost on her. Was she over her? No, she'd thought of her each and every day since she'd left, despite the years. But she'd finally found some form of closure, finding a companion that she'd chosen to settle down with that - somehow - helped relieve some of the loneliness that had gripped her for so long. While she and Athena hadn't really discussed their feelings Ara had grown fond of her, in her own quiet way, and suddenly everything she thought she had known felt disrupted. She was frozen for a long moment, watching as Elohim slipped from Novel's back and moved toward her. She had always been quite fond of her former mate's companion, and she spent a moment observing him. Time had clearly taken its toll on the small creature as well, though the sight of him elicited a faint smile from her, despite the tears that had already began to spill. She made no effort to fight them, knowing that trying to stop them would only make them hurt worse.

Her gaze was steady as she lifted it to Novel, watching Novel as she began to speak. She was sorry, she said, though her voice was soft and as sweet as she ever remembered. Only briefly would she close her eyes, tentatively taking another step forward as she struggled to maintain her composure. Any chance of not forgiving Novel (not that such a thing had ever been a real possibility) seemed to slip away from her all at once as Novel's smell washed over her, more clearly now. "It's.. okay," she said finally, wanting the pained look on Novel's face to disappear. She had spent so much of their live together caring for her, and trying to protect her - she couldn't hold on to their past and continue to exacerbate that pain, no matter how much she herself was hurting. Slowly, almost cautiously, she moved to close the distance between them. Once her nose finally met Novel's shoulder, she very nearly melted, inhaling her scent as if she needed it to survive. It didn't take very long at all for her to move her snout, dragging it toward the fur of her neck, finally moving to press against her in a slight embrace. "I honestly never thought I'd see you again," Ara breathed quietly, not trying to make her feel bad, but simply being honest, though she didn't pull away from her quite yet.

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