S.O.S
This loneliness was a vice on the poor blind man heart, squeezing with just enough pressure to be a constant pain. It kills him every day he was away from Ramses just a little bit more, taking what was once his inner light and replacing it with a darkness that overshadows each moment. It is the fuel of his nightmares, the reason he struggles to breathe when a new shock comes. Where was the limit? He felt so abandoned and this only filled him with despair and anxiety. If this was because after his own father gauged out his eyes the man-God became a pillar in his life, he did not know but he knew that from the moment he went blind he refused to accept the help of others, he could hunt and walk just like any of them; yes, of course he tripped and sometimes did not know his way back but he never realized how much he got accustomed with his Master before now. When comes the point at which dogs are called off and the help begins? Because he needed to know; he really needed to know. It comes as an electrical storm in his brain that, quite honestly, was painful. It was different from a headache and it felt the same as intense sorrow, perhaps as a sort of frozen panic with nowhere to go. So though he appear calm, his sad body language was saying far more than "Help me," , it was saying that his soul is in such unbearable pain and all because he was alone for the first time since his incident. Panic began to ripple at his mind, it started slowly and now it was a storm with lighting and thunder. I wasn't before he felt the touch of his Master that his mind calmed but another shock took over. He needed to be grounded, he needed to feel safe once again. Master. he whined pathetically, Master , please. he whined once again as he laid on the ground, curling into himself and making himself seem as small as possible. He needed Ramses to ground him the only way he knew how, with pain. He needed his mind to shut up and in order to do that he had to feel each blow physically and mentally until he could not think anymore about anything else. |
