miss sunshine, mr rain-on-your-parade
ft kairi
He suddenly seemed as shy and as embarrassed as she did when she mentioned being friends. It was totally unusual for her. She was hardly ever shy about anything. In fact, she couldn't recall a time she had ever been shy. She supposed she was sort of at this moment because Holland was new and she didn't want to make him uncomfortable with anything, but maybe she just had. She didn't know. It seemed she hadn't been so sure of anything anymore, and she was just now realizing that. "of course. we're friends. and packmates." Man, this guy was pretty awkward, wasn't he? Not that she minded. She was sure that she was being awkward now, too what with spilling all this random sad stuff on him. C'mon Riri, get it together! She'd mentally scold herself. "Heh, well if you weren't a pack mate now, I'd be inclined to punt you into the water too ya know? It's kinda part of my job," She joked and threw in a wink for good measure, referring to the unfortunate event that had happened to Rags. Ah, that felt better. She didn't like feeling all gloomy. She much preferred her old, joking self.
"family is... complicated" She glanced at him, bi-colored gaze swimming with a moment of confusion. Well...he wasn't wrong. As simple and as boring as her life seemed, she had a whole assortment of family problems. Or she did. But sometimes she felt like it was still going on...and more than likely the distance that had been put between the family that remained still lingered, but nobody would admit it. Or maybe it was just her. She couldn't speak for Torin and their dad. "its how you... live your life. make your own circle. that's more important." Um...what? She tilted her head with confusion, wondering what he meant by that. "What do you mean by...'make your own circle'? I thought family was most important?" Was it really though? All her life she had sacrificed her ambitions and everything to stay with her family...so much that she wasn't even sure what she wanted. What her dreams were. Her ambitions. Her goals. Whereas Torin had a family now. A real, true family. She kinda sorta had her dad, but he was old...she knew she'd lose him in the near future...who would she have then?
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