what if this is all the love you'll ever get

Even laying in Sirius’s arms she hadn’t slept well after their talk. With a few fitful winks she awoke and left her guard sleeping in the den. He likely wouldn’t remain there for long, but she wanted a few moments alone to herself. Her heavy belly swayed as she walked, though it was difficult for her to leave the ravine these days she risked it anyway and made her way over the ridge and towards the beach.

Dainty paws carried her to her favorite rock, the moon lit the pebbled beach up magnificently. Belle sighed heavily as she draped herself over the boulder. Tears welled up in her eyes as she lay her head on her delicately placed forelegs. Her heart felt like it was still tearing inside her chest, and the thought of Sirius and Zeitgeist together haunted her. This shouldn’t have hurt so much, it shouldn’t be a big deal. But Seer was hers and knowing the brute had chosen anyone over her both infuriated and tore her to pieces. She hated this, and she tried not to hate either of her servants, but the task was hard. Belle wanted what she couldn’t have, and this only made the reality of her denial so much more real. Seer would never be hers.