I gave up hoping some miracle would set me free

The dame had made her way to the Rio Grande. She had been a bit confused of what she could call home anymore...bus as long as she still had her family right? With a sigh she shook her head as bi-colored eyes settled on the river. Her children would be yearlings come Summer. At the thought of that she realized she shouldn't be out here. Not after what had happened last year. A shiver ran down her spine as she remembered the horrid events. The Dane's heat snapped her out of her thoughts. It was kind of annoying but she was able to ignore it like her sister Maka was able to as well. Perhaps she should go back and stay with her mother and children until Summer. But that would make her a coward wouldn't it...what ha she even become now? Keki felt like she had been a failure as a mother. Her own children even carried a burden. They knew they were different from the other pups. They knew they didn't have a father to stick around and raise them like the others. Was that the reason to Keki's failures? She didn't have help? But then again why should she have help...why should she need it? Turning away from her reflection in the water the dame didn't want to look at herself.

If only she hadn't left the territory that night...she sought adventure but got something completely different. Memories of that night plagued her mind as she had been violated. Memories of seclusion herself from her family only to hide her pregnancy. She remembered feeling ashamed...feeling like a slut. But the thing was...she wasn't. Keki knew she was smart, serious, and she didn't expect to wander out into the woods and be raped. And what had that done to her? How had it affected her life? She had worked constantly intake care of the three children or products of that night. The three little darlings that came out of something bad. Yet she remembered being pinned down against her own will.

And now...now? She already had children and had ruined her life by straying from the territory that night. No man would love a dame who already has children. None of her children would ever have a father. And she hated herself for that. Knowing that neither of her pups deserved this. They deserved more, they deserved what everyone else had. Ben looking at her son who was the odd one out of the three made a small shiver run up her spine every time. He looked so much like his father, a spitting image almost. But his father was the man who had raped her. His father was the man who had made her feel violated! His father was the man who had deprived her children of a proper upbringing. A sigh escaped her maw as the dame sat by the river. It was over, everything was over. Once her three sons turned of she they would probably leave her. And what would she be left with? That is what scared Keki the most.....because she didn't know....

The dame shuddered before standing up and turning away. But before she took those few steps to leave her bi-colored eyes spotted a figure by the river. It looked like another wolf. The dame quietly and cautiously walked towards the wolf. As she came closer she realized it was a brute, hunching over the water. As she came closer she saw that his eyes were closed. Yet hesitantly taking a few steps back she resisted the urge to flee. Of course he would be able to smell her heat more clearly now. Her heart beat fast in her chest as she hoped he wouldn't be like the horrid brute on that horrid night. Maybe he would be friendly...but by the looks of it it looked like he needed a friend as well.

"Exscuse me....? Are you alright sir?" she said as she kept her distance in case she had to run.