i'm not okay

Thaddeus felt hot shame burning in the pit of his stomach combined with other confusing emotions. he hadn't noticed his season had come, and that he was a year older and technically an adult now. but he knew that it didn't matter in the end. he had nobody to hold onto, no community to take him in, and worst of all he had fled away from the one person who had shown him kindness. if he went back to Olympia now, he'd just cause more problems. they couldn't fix him. he could barely fix this himself. "what the fuck am I supposed to do now?!" he shrieked, kicking out at the corpse beside him and tearing into it in a fit of rage.

the world was ending. he didn't know if other worlds were though; he could run away and never come back if he thought about it. but he wasn't thinking straight. he needed something to grasp, some idea to hold... maybe even someone to be beside. not romantically necessarily, but just as an ally. a friend. someone he could depend on. someone who wouldn't care if they had to depend on him back. Thaddeus desired acceptance. but he wasn't sure if he would fight for it. so far his efforts had been in vain. the mutt lowered his head and he reclined upon the earth. his long tail twisted around his shaking legs, trying to find some form of comfort.