Fix me Father
07-24-2013, 11:05 PM
Loccian stood there in silence, waiting for her nephew's response. She did not want to tell him what had happened that day, didn't want him to get the mental images but at the same time she felt like she had to. Augustus wanted to know about his father, how could she be selfish and keep that information from him? A brave and noble wolf he was, always managing to say what was needed to calm others down. Augustus would want to know that, but for now she would tell him what happened in Octavian's final moments. From where she stood the shewolf could see the male turn and walk away, causing her to take a deep breath then sigh, turning her head away. She felt bad for being so harsh on the battlefield but at the same time she felt like he deserved the attitude. He didn't matter right now, it wasn't about him. It was about Augustus, he deserved to know this, deserved to know why his aunt acted the way she did now. Finally he spoke up, Loccian's ears perking up to catch his voice. He wanted to know what happened there, to know everything. She slowly nodded he head with a small sigh, a smile forming but not that big when he told her that he loved her and couldn't ask for a better aunt. "Augustus..." His name came out as a whisper, looking to him with dull yet wide grey eyes. He told her that he felt like she was alone, very true indeed, but he also felt the same way. Of course, he had told her, why didn't she believe it? "Okay... I'll start from the beginning..." She started, clearing her throat lightly, turning her head to look to the cave entrance. Suddenly the sad look returned, lips starting to tremble already. "I was out walking, just thinking about thinks going on in my life. It seemed like it was getting better, me and Octavian started a new life in Seracia. We were repairing our bond... But while I was out I caught his scent, curiosity formed, I was wondering way he would be so far up north and to get an answer I followed it." She paused, taking a deep breath, brows coming together. "I followed his scent here, but at the entrance I heart these screams..." Her voice was already starting to tremble, lips quivering, eyes watering. "He called my name and it scared me... it was like nothing I've ever heard before. And... there was blood in the air, I... I ran inside. Searched the cave, looking for him and after a few moments I finally found him after he screamed my name again." Her eyes went wide, falling back onto her rear, remembering what he looked like when she had found him. "There was blood, oozing from his head and neck, slowly forming a pool beneath us." Her eyes closed, not wanting to look at the very spot where they had laid. "He apologized for leaving me when we were younger, finally understanding the loneliness I dealt with, telling me to leave him to die... that he didn't wish to live anymore but suddenly started to whine about wanting to live and not wanting to die here. He begged me to take him before the darkness did." Finally the tears started to roll down her cheeks, throat tight, trying to contain herself, not wanting to break down in front of her nephew. "It was my fault it happened to him." Her eyes snapped open, staring past Augustus, looking past the cave wall. "If I had been there for him, he would still be alive... If I hadn't been spending time with Bronze, Octavian would still be here. He would have been able to meet you." Her wide eyes looked to the boy, an incredible amount of pain in her eyes, guilt, misery. "My fault..." The tears streamed even more down her face now, whole body shaking badly. The guilt, so heavy on her shoulders. She could have prevented his death, could have given him the help he needed. "I helped him stand up, supporting most of his weight. With how much blood he had already lost he was still strong, able to walk outside before finally collapsing." Slowly her head turned away to look towards the cave entrance, looking out at the grass before it. "Even just laying there for a few seconds there was a puddle of blood forming beneath him... He told me he was tired, sleepy... Apologized, told me he loved me and said he was honored to have me as a sister..." She gave a small nod, a sad smile on her lips. She was proud to have him as a brother, and still loved him very much. "Then he asked if he was dying, told me he was scared. It made my heart drop, a feeling like n other overwhelming over my body. I knew he would die, there was no amount of herbs or sweat I could put in to save him, no other wolf could possibly fix him up in time..." She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, trying to control herself, keep her voice straight enough to speak. "I... I..." She gritted her fangs, turning her head to the side and closed her eyes tightly. The pain was becoming too much, the lie she had to tell her brother... "I told him he wasn't dying, to not be scared because he was just tired..." She gulped, taking in a deep but very shaky breath. "I told him that he would be fine, to rest his eyes and when he woke up he would feel better... I promised him." She slammed a paw against the ground, making a thump that echoed off the walls and down some tunnels, a few tears dropping onto the cave floor. "So many tears... so much blood." She shook her head. "He told me he didn't want to go, that he wanted to stay with me... So we lay there together, my head on his neck. He apologized for leaving me again, promised I would see him again... that he would always be there even if I could see him." Yes, how could she forget that... Octavian would always be there for her, in her heart and would never truly be gone. But wit that thought she finally broke down, sobbing, shaking, curling up into a ball on the floor but when she finally spoke, it was only long enough to say the very last thing he told her. "With his dying breath... he said... I love you." "normal. talk. think. you." Awesome table by Andy <3 |
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