Renewal [ASHEN MEETING]

It felt as though she had been there in the last bloodcurdling moments of her father's life. She was sure they were just suppositions of what had happened, but the images haunted her still. She had not told anyone about these dreams yet, nor had she disclosed the toll they were taking on her mentally. Obi had been of some comfort, telling her that regardless of if what she was seeing was what really happened, it hurt her all the same and that she couldn't change the past. She knew that. It was logical. Still, she couldn't get the image of her father burning up out of her mind. The taste of ash was strong in her maw and its scent burned her nose and lungs. Her eyes watered but they still felt dry. She didn't know how to escape these feelings. She didn't know why she was seeing these things. What was she supposed to do with this information? She didn't know. She wasn't sure if she ever would know.

Her mother called out. There was to be a meeting? Toxicity pulled herself together, shaking her coat free of any debris. She felt hollow, but she didn't have to let everyone know. Tox made her way to the meeting. Many seemed to pair off in one way or another, but Toxicity didn't feel particularly inclined to be near to any of the wolves. She envied their closeness, but failed to feel it stir within her heart. She felt herself pull away, each nightmare making her more and more fearful of getting close to anyone ever again.