Hello darkness my old friend

She couldn't move from where she was standing, fear had virtually disabled her ability to control her body, fear and stress was good with that, with making one lose common sense. She was in shock, consumed by the illusion she was suffering. An illusion tha brought to life one if not the biggest of her fears, one she had been trying to escape from all of her life. She was able to notice all wasnt real, that this was just a bad joke of her brain, making her think this was for real, and such she ignored what was really going on the real world. Her heart pounded like a bomb, fast and noisily, and what could she do? Nothing at all.

As minutes passed, she tried to run, she tried to escape and at first, she couldn't move her legs, but then a noise woke her up. Making her realize a yelp of fear. "No..NO!" She yelled as she looked around trying to see where she could run to. Running away was all she wanted to do in this moment, but a familiar voice stopped her. It was from Acer, the alpha. "I..." He asked if she was alright if there was any problem. She wasnt sure if she should tell him, what would he think of her? What if he thinks she was consumed by madness? Would he kick her from the pack should he know? Should he know the eternal battle she was fighting in? The battle against her past and the depression that followed to it? Sadly she didn't have anyone to tell this, she didn't have that type of wolf she would trust in enought to share this. She felt unworthy of someone's time, and even less the time of the alpha itself. "I...saw them...I saw those I tried to forget, those who hated me...who laughed of me.." She started to say. "They came back...my parents, my siblings the pack that wanted my death, the pack that didn't love me...they are back to end me..."

Her voice was broken, her eyes consumed by tears looked away. She felt stupid, by behaving like this, by showing this pathetic side of her. "I am tired...of being seen trash, someone who should have never existed. I am done of watchng those who claimed to be my friends abandoning me without question...They all do the same, they all leave me behind at the end..." She was broken, inside out. "I don't know what being loved feels like...what a lovely mother felt like...what having someone to play with was...I never had the right for that..." She admitted feeling her energy to drop, making her sit down in a hard way.

"I am sorry...I dont want to bother...its never my intention..."

"speak"