so hold me

There was no magic fix to the trauma that still held to the dainty healer, time and building of a relationship would be the only thing that would allow her to trust him. Roan knew this, and could feel that she wanted to loosen and believe him. He could also fully understand her hesitance and he didn’t hold it against her, it was fuel for Roan’s desire to prove himself to Iolaire. He was losing himself as he ran his tongue over her ears when she lowered them and made his stop.

Roan’s verdant gaze found her golden green eyes as she pulled back, there was confusion in his features before she asked about his sister. They both realized that they didn’t know each other, and if time was what they needed thy may as well spend it getting to know each other. Dapple’s loss still hurt, his failure at keeping his sister alive was still very real. His expression showed that. She wanted to know about his family, about him, and he would indulge her curiosity.

”Dapple…” he started with a soft sigh as her bright features popped into his mind. ”She was a better fighter than me, nothing bothered her. She was always happy. Excited about life.” His voice was pained, but counter intuitively it felt good to speak about her. ”I failed her.” Roan shook his head, he should have been the one to have succumbed to the bear. ”We’ve been alone for a long time. We were maybe.. nine months old when our mother disappeared. Never knew my father.” He didn’t know what happened to the woman that birthed them. She’d given them her love but she’d abandoned them.

”Dapple and I have been fighting for survival since.” He whined softly, feeling again the hopelessness of losing her. ”Had.. been.” His eyes fell and he collapsed inwardly. ”It’s my fault.” Dapple should have been there, of all the wolves Roan had met she embraced life the fullest. She deserved to have life.