ardent

My Hearts Still On The Floor

Gloom



Eulogy

Somnium

Intermediate Hunter (30)

Expert Healer (155)

age
10 Years
gender
Female
gems
0
size
Medium
build
Light
posts
151
player
Hermes

Pride - Demisexual
04-25-2020, 10:43 AM

It was still so surreal to be back home after months of searching, each morning she opened her eyes felt like a dream. While things were still rocky, as she had imagined after being gone for so long, she was glad that they had taken both her and Spirit back. She had her family once more, albeit a bit broken. While part of her knew that it wasn't her fault that they had gotten split up during the volcano eruption, the mocha coloured lady couldn't help but blame herself. Because of it, she had missed so much in her children's lives, they had grown up without her. Desolate seemed the most hesitant to accept her back into his life, and of that she couldn't blame him. She was his mother, and still she left him by himself, all of them. Over and over her heart broke for them, for Spirit too, who missed out on growing up with his siblings. Eu felt like she could have prevented this all, but couldn't go back in time to change it. There was a lot that she wished that she could change, but leaving her children would always be her biggest regret.

Her paws touched the sand gingerly as she walked down Fontamo Bay, a light breeze ruffling her coat. She hadn't dared to leave pack lands since coming home, afraid that the second she stepped over that border, that something would sweep her away again. She had promised all her children that she would never leave again, and it was a promise that she had the best intentions to keep. There were a lot of bridges to be mended, and lost time to make up for. She was sure that she was driving them all crazy now, there wasn't a time that she wasn't sticking her nose into what they were doing, checking up on them constantly and making sure that all was well. There was such a heavy fear on missing out now, that she would be absent for anything else. It was a fluttering panic that never quite left her chest. It was hard to sleep, hard to do much of anything now, that constant anxiety that she already dealt with heightened. Those months felt like the longest part of her life... even after all that she had been through. Eulogy blew out a heavy sigh, turning to cast her deep blue eyes over the crystal waters to her right. Simple beauty seemed to be lost on her now, like heavy tinted glass blocked her vision. There was so much work to be done to make her family whole again, and she hardly knew how to start. Biting her lip to suppress the whine that threatened to leave her, Eu trotted up the sands and onto a small cliff that was cloaked in long grasses. Even the lapping of the ocean on the shore couldn't still her soul, so she lowered herself onto the grass, her chin resting on her stretched out front limbs. Eulogy closed her eyes and blew out another sigh, ears pulling forward to try to drink it all in. Slowly her heart stilled, matching the ebb and flow of the waters before her. If only the same thing could work on her racing mind...
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