give me all your loving

She allowed herself to move from the spot that had been their playground. Blood still pooled around the cold iron ground. Her ears twitched as she smiled for a moment and then turned to lay with Zara. Her body moved next to her and slipped beside her as she allowed a yawn to escape her jaws. Her tail flicked back and forth as she heard Zara agree to what she thought was the best for everyone. ?Zara..? her words were caught in her throat. Something was wrong and she knew it, in this moment she had clarity but for how long was the question. ?My mind cannot function without a purpose.? She said hesitantly. She felt embarrassed at the thought but it was who she was. That was whom she was when she had come here, Lost, on the brink of madness, or already there.

?My mind is fracturing again. Losing itself from time to time. I find myself wandering, lost, and unknown to my own eyes. Without my home, without my purpose, I lose my mind.? She said with a whine. Her tail pushed along Zaras side as she said it. ?I cannot be alone. If I am. I don?t know what will happen.? She said with real concern. Her violet eyes flickered with uncertainty as she looked to Zara, ?I seek what I always seek when I am broken. Pain, to feel needed, its an impulse and an addiction.? She said softly. She needed guidance and perhaps a little supervision until she could hold their kingdom. Once her purpose was secured then she would be strong again.