trouble is a friend of mine

*Silverback* · 08-26-2013, 08:48 PM

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Silverback glared over at wolf when he?d broken the silence. The ?pig? was supposed to be what she was eating, not who she was eating with. But he had the good sense to apologize right away and that erased any thought of scolding being needed. He?d learn in time. She had to make some allowances after the display of potential she?d witnessed.

But then his voice came again?

It seemed an odd question to ask at first? but it really wasn?t. Silverback?s eyes fell to the floor as she decided that the boy deserved a truthful answer, and that meant a search of her heart. Was she still lonely? She sighed a little. ?Yes? yes in some ways. I have tried to accept that there will be no other cats, and I?ve tried to move on?. But even that is failing me.? She glanced aside. Did she- did she dare tell this wolf what was on her mind? She hesitated a little, but then remembered that that was exactly why he was here ? so that she could speak with someone and not be left alone with her more painful thoughts. She swallowed. ?You see? there was a wolf I liked, just liked mind you, but if he had been a leopard?? She would?ve loved him. ?Anyway, I didn?t try to take him prisoner ? or anything. I let him remain free and he returned to his home in the south ? inviting me to visit him there some time. Well, not long ago I did.? Her ears twitched, ?And he was in the process of asking a she-wolf to be his mate. ?

It was hard to hide the disappointment with which this last statement was steeped, but she did her best to recover. ?It- it was for the best of course. I wanted him to be happy. To have that family that only one of his own kind could bring. I even helped them along a little. But now that he was promised himself to one and one alone, -as you silly wolves tend to do- I will not see him again. I won?t tempt him for fear of hurting his bond with the she-wolf ? but I don?t know. It seems like any chance I have for a meaningful partnership is to be taken from my grasp by the Fates.? Perhaps she was putting more feeling into the words than she really meant. It was just a wolf after all ? he didn?t matter that much to her. (Or so she convinced herself) Surely all she had been after was the sense of control ? and she didn?t like that he had slipped from her grasp. Yes ? yes that had to be it?right?

Anyway, as she came back from the depths of her thoughts, she was made aware of how much she was laying before the paws of this youth. It wasn?t like her. And yet?. It felt so natural. Maybe this was a part of her personality ? a facet that had not been allowed to be explored. At times she would bend other lives to suit her needs, but she wasn?t a villain. She was a queen of an icey realm? but her heart beat of flesh and blood. Everyone just wants to mean something to someone.

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