Teenage CIA
sirius
07-27-2020, 06:01 PM
Normally Hanako would have simply nodded and told Sirius what she thought he wanted to hear. But his questions were heavier than most, and whilst circumstances often forced her to tell slightly altered versions of the truth she didn't want to lie to him or even get into the habit of lying. So instead she took the moment and looked out at the pond, her brows furrowed as her lips curved into a pensive frown. She took it one question at a time, like she was slowly ascending a set of stairs. As to where all of this would lead her, she didn't know yet but she'd surely find out sooner or later.
Hanako was certain that the first wouldn't be an issue. Though it wasn't out of heartlessness or lack of care, Hanako found it worryingly easy to sever ties. She'd never really put too much thought into it before, but despite all of the wolves she'd met during her travels she could never truthfully say that she missed any one of them. It wasn't to say that she wished them ill, it was just...well it was hard to put into words. Even more so because she'd never even stopped to consider why, it just seemed like a irrefutable fact. One she had no right to question. But if she must then, well it likely looped back to the fact that she felt as though life wasn't exactly her own. Besides if they had well and truly wanted to be her friend wouldn't they have forced the issue, fought for her and insured that she remained by their side? No one but Azure had done that, in part it was why she was so attached to him.
So could she put on the show of friendship and cast them aside when it was time? Yes, she could do that for the Armada.
The second was a little trickier. Hanako had a bit of trouble unpacking the meaning. Was he referring to the fact that she'd be alone without her packmates to back her up, if need be? That if she got into trouble would she be capable of getting herself out of it? Or was it simpler than that, was he asking her if she could stand to be alone? Just her and a job that needed to be done. Hanako had long since concluded that she'd do whatever Azure asked of her and thus Sirius too, by extension. Prior to the Armada she'd never had a home anyway so she didn't think she'd get particularly homesick and besides she always felt a sense of peace and belonging when on the move. So whatever he meant...Hanako felt certain, or as close to it as she could get, that she'd be able to manage.
"I can do it." Was all she said.
Hanako was certain that the first wouldn't be an issue. Though it wasn't out of heartlessness or lack of care, Hanako found it worryingly easy to sever ties. She'd never really put too much thought into it before, but despite all of the wolves she'd met during her travels she could never truthfully say that she missed any one of them. It wasn't to say that she wished them ill, it was just...well it was hard to put into words. Even more so because she'd never even stopped to consider why, it just seemed like a irrefutable fact. One she had no right to question. But if she must then, well it likely looped back to the fact that she felt as though life wasn't exactly her own. Besides if they had well and truly wanted to be her friend wouldn't they have forced the issue, fought for her and insured that she remained by their side? No one but Azure had done that, in part it was why she was so attached to him.
So could she put on the show of friendship and cast them aside when it was time? Yes, she could do that for the Armada.
The second was a little trickier. Hanako had a bit of trouble unpacking the meaning. Was he referring to the fact that she'd be alone without her packmates to back her up, if need be? That if she got into trouble would she be capable of getting herself out of it? Or was it simpler than that, was he asking her if she could stand to be alone? Just her and a job that needed to be done. Hanako had long since concluded that she'd do whatever Azure asked of her and thus Sirius too, by extension. Prior to the Armada she'd never had a home anyway so she didn't think she'd get particularly homesick and besides she always felt a sense of peace and belonging when on the move. So whatever he meant...Hanako felt certain, or as close to it as she could get, that she'd be able to manage.
"I can do it." Was all she said.