Take away the pain that I felt

*Yurei* · (This post was last modified: 08-19-2020, 06:53 PM by Yurei.)

As she went to lie against his form,he wrapped a leg around her like trying to get her closer.Yurei didnt turn off the gesture and herself moved closer and shove her face into his fluffy neck. His scent was something she always appreciated and it made her feel safe,away from the outside world's dangers and cruelty. Cruelty she herself experienced in her own fresh,in her own soul which now bore the consequences. Consequences that sometimes made of her existence a complete nightmare,one she didnt have to be asleep to live. But here under Casso's embrace, some of the fears that always haunted her were gone. Sometimes she didnt want to leave his side,but she knew she will have to,she was a healer, someone who was needed all the time for the pack's better health.And she still had an apprentice under her wing.

The male placed his chin on her scruff,this made her shiver but in an almost undetectable intensity.And it wasnt in the wrong way,she welcomed it with peace closing her eyes , wanting to stay in such rapprochement with someone she was starting to love,yes Yurei the sadness queen was starting to allow love to come to her beaten up heart.A heartbroken with emotional scars yet to heal. Therefrom nowhere a tiny tear escaped her eye, crawling down her cheek,she didnt notice it but there she started to feel heavy, feeling a knot forming on her throat.

"If I ever start to lose control - really lose control where I'm just too far gone to save - then... save yourself. Don't let me hurt you."

She shook her head to erase all the stupid sadness from her heart for now. She looked up to him,not knowing her eyes were wet. "Don't worry...ill try to save you...and even if you can hurt me...there is bigger chances of being myself who end up destroying myself...sometimes i can't trust in myself...i can't take control of my emotions..of my actions...there was one time when i felt so low that i stopped eating...just because someone who called herself my friend abandoned the pack...just for that thing i was on a self-destruction pat with my life...I can never stop blaming myself for all the bad things that happens around me...sometimes i think others leave because of me,that others are sad or hurt because of me..." No one knew what was wrong with her,no one ever knew what she was going through but she dared to tell Casso. "I want to stay by you..." There she felt how her eyes started to tear again, feeling her body shaking. "Ill stay by you...by you...i wont let you down...i won't let you have to face your demons alone..." 'I wont let you suffer alone.. as i did...' She hided her face onto his chest,she hated herself for being so weak, so stupid.

"Speak"

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