What's Mine is Ours
Tamsyn
Knight
09-20-2020, 07:18 PM
She let herself be pulled into Resin's embrace again and thankfully shrunk into the larger woman's form, burying her face in her fur and letting herself get lost in the scent of her. She had hoped that Resin would deny her suspicions and would assure her that it was something else, some kind of sickness she hadn't thought of, but that wasn't the case. Her lover confirmed that the symptoms pointed to that possibility and her heart sank and emotions welled up in her throat. She was never as reckless as she was that night and it felt like this was a perfect example of why. She had no doubt that Resin would stay true to her word that they would work through it together, but the sudden realization was still more overwhelming than she could possibly describe. The feeling of Resin's paw on her back and the grooming she left behind her ear was soothing and reassuring and she found herself heavily relying on Resin's affections and presence to push down the panic that threatened to creep up her spine. She didn't really care about the actual birthing part of the process or having to carry these pups. It was everything that came afterward that worried her. She looked up at Resin when she insisted that she would be a good mother and that she would be better than she had been, but the doubt was easily seen in her expression. She was quiet while her head rested on Resin's chest and she stared out across the steaming water beside them. She couldn't pull from her own experiences with her mother as something she could emulate - both of her parents had been terrible and hurtful in mental and physical ways. She didn't feel ready to be a mother for them, but now that didn't matter. She had no choice. They were coming whether she was ready or not. The only thing that helped her as she began to process this new reality was the fact that she and Resin would go through this together. They weren't planned by any stretch of the imagination, but they would be theirs. She almost kind of liked that she had no idea who the father was out of the men she was with because it gave her a disconnect between them and their future children. They would belong to her and Resin and no one else. They could protect them and give them the life they deserved. She never wanted any pup to go through anything close to the turmoil and pain she had experienced and at least she could guarantee that much. She was sure she would make mistakes along the way, but perhaps between the two of them they could make sure these pups were raised well. There was a long stretch of silence before Tamsyn finally lifted her gaze back to Resin's again and she pulled a weak smile onto her lips. "I guess... I guess we're going to be parents." Once she said the words out loud it felt more real. She could let herself start to feel at least a little bit excited about the prospect though she was sure it would still take more time for her to fully process it. "I guess we'll need to build a pretty big den, huh?" she added as her smile widened a bit more and she leaned up to place a gentle lick on Resin's chin. All she could do now was try to make the best of the situation. A thought crossed her mind that both amused and concerned her a bit as she added a follow up question, "How long does the nausea last? I'm not going to be sick the whole way through this am I?" |
