reality is a lovely place, but i wouldn't want to live there

Once he could finally pull himself away from the scene he’d witnessed Indigo started running and he didn’t stop. He’d never felt anything like this before, he was so low it seemed like there was no light at the top. Darkness flooded his vision as stray tears leaked from his baby blue eyes. He was sure that his heart had broken and he truly realized what his sister had meant that day they spoke. The words seemed so much different than what he’d seen.

He didn’t want to be stopped by anyone in the pack so as he made his retreat Indy avoided the Armada as best as he could. His mind was reeling and Indy was sure that he didn’t want to think about anything anymore. Everything was becoming so much more clear, and it was mor epainful than he realized. The reality was he could never be with Aslatiel. The closer he was to her the less he could hold himself back. The more he realized he was easily replaced. He didn’t know who had been with her, but he’d seen how close they were. Indigo had never felt jealousy like this before. He’d never felt so helpless before either.

Indy didn’t realize it but he had run straight back to where he’d left Rue. It was a private little place, and it seemed safe enough even if it wasn’t in the pack. The boy slowed as he approached the edge of the gulley. His breathing was ragged and rough, just like his appearance. He didn’t know what to do, he didn’t know what he wanted. Just for this intense pain to go away, but as he saw it that task would forever be impossible. He’d spend the rest of his life wishing for something that could never be.

Feeling his weakness catch up to him Indigo collapsed onto the ground, only barely withholding his rampant emotions.