reality is a lovely place, but i wouldn't want to live there

When he realized where he’d wound up Indigo almost picked himself back up and kept running. Rue didn’t deserve to see him like this, the last thing he wanted was to put these emotions on her. She was already dealing with so much. She shouldn’t have to try and wade through his own crazy emotions. He could get through on his own. Maybe.

It was too late when he realized she’d seen him. With no hesitation suddenly Rue was beside him, her soft arms wrapped around his neck and Indy couldn’t help but to lean into her affection. He couldn’t have Aslatiel’s, no matter how much he wanted that. She tried to ask him what was wrong, but could he really tell her? He hadn’t told anyone but Aslatiel, it was better if he kept it to himself. It was better if he bottled it up and just tried to forget he even had a heart.

He shook his head as he wrapped his neck around hers and shifted so that he could hold her close. There was a bit of relief from the awful emotions that filled him, she was like a balm to the searing pain that held him tightly. ”I’m sad.” He confessed, unable to speak the realities of his emotions, unwilling to invoke the cruel scene he had witnessed. Unable to divulge the true pain that laced his heart. He pulled her in closer, squeezing her lightly as he shoved his feelings away and tried to welcome the numbness that was hopefully to follow.