Healer, Heal Thyself
Askan
10-01-2020, 09:36 PM
She is lost in her head, spinning and falling down, down, down… then a sigh reaches her ears. It is not much but she latches onto it, following it out of the darkness that she has found herself in. Breathing evens out, head lifts from off her chest and eyes slowly blink open as Askan’s words reach her. Meadow listens intently, hanging on each word as if they are a lifeline. Something starts to happen, the words reach her and the clouds of worry and doubt start to lift. Askan doesn’t blame her for what happened. Maybe, just maybe, the others feel the same way about it as him.
Listening as he goes on, Meadow feels the truth of what he says sink in. This was not her fault. Meadow had only tried to help, offered the wolf nothing but kindness and warmth. Yet the wolf had lashed out at her with cruel words. They had cut her deeply, causing uncertainty and guilt to seep into the wounds. Watching Askan, truly hearing what he has to say, Meadow feels anger raising in her chest. It is not directed at Askan or even at herself, this time she allows the anger to rest where it belongs, on the wolf who had caused this.
For the first time in days, a glimmer of the old Meadow appears and she looks at Askan, this time meeting his molten gaze. She says, “You are right. You are very right. Sometimes, I think I have to take responsibility for things that are beyond my control. I wanted to help him, I showed him nothing but kindness and he… was mean.” Brows furrow as she remembers the words spat at her in hatred. Tail flicks sharply from side to side as she holds onto that part of the story, remembers the pain that wolf had caused her.
Stomping a paw down in frustration, she says, “I didn’t deserve what he said about me! I am not a bitch! I try and I try to be nice but sometimes there are wolves that just don’t deserve that kindness. Heck, even when I told him off, I did it in a gentle way. I could have told him to fuck off, get the hell off of our lands and never come back, but I didn’t. It is not my fault he fell.” Realization dawns like a sunrise after a long moonless night. It lights up her features with understanding and peace. She repeats the words again, “It is not my fault he fell.” and this time, she believes it.
Taking in a deep breath, Meadow gathers all the emotions and guilt that have been hanging over her for the past three days. For a moment she holds onto them before allowing herself to release them all when she exhales. Body sags and she feels the relief of letting go. Stomach rumbles, thirst makes itself known and her body feels heavy from lack of sleep. Eyes find Askan’s brilliant yellow gaze and Meadow offers him a weary smile. She tells him, “Thank you.” While she still feels some lingering guilt and doubt, the small healer is on the path to healing. It will take some time but Meadow will be alright.
"Speech!"
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Listening as he goes on, Meadow feels the truth of what he says sink in. This was not her fault. Meadow had only tried to help, offered the wolf nothing but kindness and warmth. Yet the wolf had lashed out at her with cruel words. They had cut her deeply, causing uncertainty and guilt to seep into the wounds. Watching Askan, truly hearing what he has to say, Meadow feels anger raising in her chest. It is not directed at Askan or even at herself, this time she allows the anger to rest where it belongs, on the wolf who had caused this.
For the first time in days, a glimmer of the old Meadow appears and she looks at Askan, this time meeting his molten gaze. She says, “You are right. You are very right. Sometimes, I think I have to take responsibility for things that are beyond my control. I wanted to help him, I showed him nothing but kindness and he… was mean.” Brows furrow as she remembers the words spat at her in hatred. Tail flicks sharply from side to side as she holds onto that part of the story, remembers the pain that wolf had caused her.
Stomping a paw down in frustration, she says, “I didn’t deserve what he said about me! I am not a bitch! I try and I try to be nice but sometimes there are wolves that just don’t deserve that kindness. Heck, even when I told him off, I did it in a gentle way. I could have told him to fuck off, get the hell off of our lands and never come back, but I didn’t. It is not my fault he fell.” Realization dawns like a sunrise after a long moonless night. It lights up her features with understanding and peace. She repeats the words again, “It is not my fault he fell.” and this time, she believes it.
Taking in a deep breath, Meadow gathers all the emotions and guilt that have been hanging over her for the past three days. For a moment she holds onto them before allowing herself to release them all when she exhales. Body sags and she feels the relief of letting go. Stomach rumbles, thirst makes itself known and her body feels heavy from lack of sleep. Eyes find Askan’s brilliant yellow gaze and Meadow offers him a weary smile. She tells him, “Thank you.” While she still feels some lingering guilt and doubt, the small healer is on the path to healing. It will take some time but Meadow will be alright.
"Speech!"
Avatar and Chibi by Half.A.Wyrm