Again again again
Naiche
10-02-2020, 06:04 PM
She had been so sure that she had thrown the entire spar away with her own short comings, but when he pointed out that she had dodged the last attack and had at least attacked back in her attempts to get him away from her. She tentatively brought her eyes back up to him, watching him uncertainly for a moment. Everything he said was surprisingly constructive and in a way she kind of appreciated how he forced her to think about a solution rather than trying to console her. Coming from him at least any sort of sympathy would have felt strange and she could just be grateful that his comments weren't as biting as they were last time. For a moment she considered the two options - defense or offense. Defense felt safer and more familiar and most certainly would be easier to continue from what she knew already. If she was just going off of what her protective walls and fears were telling her then that was with out a doubt the route that she would want to go with. However, after that slip up she felt like she had something to prove. She wasn't sure if learning how to fight was really the way to make her get over her trauma, but it was the only tool she had readily available so it was the one she was going to lean on. She wanted that confidence. She didn't want the lingering memories of what Osmond had done to plague her forever. There was a small stretch of silence before she finally spoke and she lifted her head as she did, remembering what he had said the last time they met about how she held herself. "Lets work on offense. I've practiced defense ten times over at this point... It's the attacks that I'm still really unsure about." It wasn't going to be easy, but that's what Aslatiel and Sirius had both told her, wasn't it? All of this was going to be incredibly hard and nothing she could do would really prepare her for just how hard it really was, but she was willing to put in the work. |