there's no way out of this dark place

Iolaire leaned forward to kiss him gently, Indy’s blue eyes closed softly as he let her affection soothe him. She told him what he’d been expecting, she hadn’t been able to enjoy her garden yet. Indy nuzzled her cheek lovingly, knowing that she had to be miserable. His emotions seemed to drag him down and he didn’t feel like caring for his garden as much, she had to feel the same way. Not even being able to get to her garden with how sick she was. Indy didn’t press her, he could guess how difficult her life was right now.

She looked up to him, dainty paws over his massive one. Baby blue eyes met hers as she coaxed his problems out. Again he hesitated, she didn’t deserve to have to deal with her problems as well as his own. Guilt weighed as heavily as his heartache. He sighed heavily as he steeled himself and looked around the room just in case anyone was listening.

”Aunty Io…” Desperation clung to him. ”I love Aslatiel.” Indy admitted softly to start. ”I can’t be with her.” His words were barely a whisper, and he avoided placing blame on his father as much as he could. If Sirius didn’t hate the idea would Indy have been free to love who he wanted? ”I…” He couldn’t even describe what he’d seen. Aslatiel and… he didn’t even know the boy she’d been with. He felt a deep burning jealousy within him, but it wasn’t anything compared to how much it hurt not having his sister. ”How do I get rid of the pain?”