you always want what you can't have

He couldn’t describe the joy he felt being with her like this again, he really wasn’t the same when they were apart. Everything always ended in the same way though, they’d have a great time touring the border and then when he had to return her to her den sadness would return. He wanted to hold her, comfort her, kiss her sweet face… but he wasn’t allowed. What he wanted most in the world, to be close to her, was forbidden. His heart ached for that fact. Indigo cursed himself for bringing the topic up, but he had to tell her. Even if it hurt she had to know. He trusted his aunt, this was the path he had to take, even if he didn’t want to leave her ever again.

She pressed tighter against him and he slowed nearly to a stop as he closed his eyes and took in a deep breath to quell his own emotions. ”Why?” She asked, but he knew that she knew the reason. ”Because I’m not strong enough to stay.” He admitted softly, Indigo wanted so badly to be beside her, but knowing that he’d have to see her and she would see him, playing their forced game ripped his heart even further. ”It hurts so bad…” His voice broke and he shook his head lightly as he forced his paws to begin to move again. He hurt, and he knew that his sister did just as much as he. ”I’m so sorry Aslatiel.” Indy muttered, unable to express how much he didn’t want to hurt her.