i'll never forget you

He couldn’t say how long it had been since Rue had died, it could have been days, weeks, hours.. Indy didn’t care or keep track. The young man hadn’t eaten anything since and for a long time he had felt sick to his stomach. Now he’d reached a state of numbness. Over the course of that time Rue’s face haunted him, her sweet smile and trusting expression continued to shift into the mangled bloody pulp the hyenas made of her. His revenge, the clan’s massacre, didn’t help his feelings. Killing them would never bring Rue back. He carried the entirety of responsibility of her death on his shoulders and slowly convinced himself that nothing was worth it anymore. He couldn’t keep anyone safe, especially not his innocent vulnerable friend. His best friend was dead because of him.

Though she had been laid to rest not long after her death it felt like the girl was still with him, blaming him for the excruciating end she’d been forced to endure much too soon. Indigo had promised that he would help her, that he would guide her and keep her safe as she made her place here in the Hallows. That promise was as shattered as she had been.

Indigo’s heart was turning to black ice. His body reflected that fact in the disheveled way his nearly grown mane rested. The black colored blood that remained on his pelt, or the fur that he clung to, a piece of Rue’s bedding that held her scent. The tears had finally stopped, but only because of his lack of water. Indigo was crashing and that fact wouldn’t be hidden from anyone.