more than i imagined

His words were honest and they earned a little chuckle from her. He was right; without him she likely wouldn't be having half as much fun. Sometimes she wondered what her life might've looked like if she'd made different choices along the way. Perhaps she'd be sitting on a throne somewhere, ruling over two united kingdoms. Or maybe in a different world she'd be still watching her children grow older with her and raise children of their own. Kirsi wasn't one to regret, persay, but the pain that she'd never quite fully dealt with from her past often came back to haunt her, often in the form of nightmares. In the daytime those thoughts were easy to ignore, and even easier in Song's presence.

At least.. usually. She tilted her head to him as he spoke her name, chewing the bite of food she'd taken as she licked her lips. His tone was more serious than she'd expected and she was surprised at what he was leading up to. "Song. Nor does mine," she admitted easily. She'd experienced more than one love in her life, though she loved him fully in the present and that was all that mattered. But.. family? She felt her breath hitch in her throat as he expression faltered, words suddenly failing her. Her own childrens' faces suddenly were brought forth from her memory. Their expressions were hazy now and barely recognizable in her mind's eye, fallen victim to the years of time that had passed. "I.. Song.." She started, though her voice faded into nothingness.

A family to carry on their bloodlines and their legacy. It was something most wolves desired as they grew older, and she certainly wasn't getting any younger. Song was a fine candidate to father children. He had a brilliant mind, he was in peak physical condition and she trusted him deeply, not to mention that she loved him. And yet the thought of bearing children again struck her with a fear she wasn't even sure she was capable of vocalizing. Fear was not an emotion she knew how to express, and even though Song had seen her when she was vulnerable she felt unwilling to fully express just how this topic made her feel. "Song," she breathed quietly again as she shifted to bury her face in his fur and work to steady her breathing. This was her one true weakness, and he'd unearthed it fully in one fell swoop.