Before I lose my mind
Venom
01-11-2021, 10:14 PM
(This post was last modified: 01-11-2021, 10:15 PM by Plague.)
He lingered in the forest near the shrine following his sister's ceremony that presented her children to the world, watching the rest of the pack interact with them from a distance. He had slipped away as soon as the main festivities were finished, if that was even the right word for them. With a heavy sigh he turned away from them and continued on through the pale trees, slowly wandering back toward his den to continue working on repairing his armor just to give himself a task to keep his mind from spiraling into a place it shouldn't be. Going to the ceremony had been expected of him and so he had attended, but it wasn't without some silent turmoil. It should have been a time for celebration and in a way it was, but it was also a reminder of his own unresolved problems and fears. His paw curled around the smaller stone an he distracted himself with rubbing a stone over the dented, pitted leather of his bracer watching the surface begin to smooth with each pass. He had hoped that this would keep his thoughts contained, but that seemed impossible. Toxicity was fulfilling her role as a dutiful, devout Abraxas. She had brought beautiful pups into this world and was clearly going above and beyond to ensure that their teachings would go on to another generation. There was no doubt that his other sisters would eventually follow suit in their own time, following their father's lessons and bringing more pieces of their god into their empire... Where did that leave him? Struggling to keep up, vying for their approval and falling short every time, failing to match his family's expectations. His jaw tightened and the motions of his paw against the leather slowed to a stop. Glimpses of his memories of Void flickered through his mind and he had to be careful to keep any of his emotions from showing through to his expression. It had to be worth it. Failing all of them, it had to be worth it. The feeling he had when he was with Void... It had to be worth it. With another sigh he pushed the stone away and turned the armor over to look at it from the other side, his stern expression emotionless while he pretended to examine the leather between his paws. |
