more than i imagined

Children. That was a big step in her relationship with Song, one she wasn't completely sure she was willing to take. Her worries stemmed from her past and the fact that she'd never fully come to terms with what had happened to her, rather than anything to do with Song. She had no reason to be wary of raising children with him, nor with continuing a life with him. But... nothing in her life had ever come without a cost, and surely this was no except. She took a few deep breaths to steady her shaking lungs and tried to gather her thoughts. If she was a different wolf she'd no doubt be crying by now, but she was trained in the art of self-preservation. Kirsi hadn't survived this long by showing her pain, especially when it was at its worst, and she wouldn't begin now. At least not in the way most wolves might.

Fortunately he didn't react as badly as she worried he might. She was no weak woman and she didn't want to be coddled by him, though he offered his support nonetheless. If he'd cradled her like something fragile that could easily shatter she doubted she'd have the desire to tell him what she knew she ought to. He seemed more surprised than anything at her sudden shift in demeanor. "I'm sorry, I just didn't expect... that," she said, her voice rising slightly as she struggled to regain her composure. "I've had children before. Talking about them... is hard for me." She'd start slowly, gauging his reaction, wondered if he had any clue exactly what she had to share with him. "But I think it's something I need to do if we have this talk." Kirsi exhaled slowly, her voice quiet but steady now.