i'll be the one

The little gesture was mostly a sleepy thank you, his mind was muddled from his tiredness. His thoughts rested too heavily on Keetie and what she’d told him, and the affections he saw Mortis give freely. Maybe deep down the gesture was meant to be so much more than his outward intentions. His deep inner feelings that he tried so hard to ignore manifesting in ways he couldn’t imagine. At first he thought the mistake a pleasant one, for a moment he pressed his lips to Mort’s and time stopped. This was nothing like when Keetie had kissed him, first or most recently. All the thoughts he’d been holding back and shoving down resurfaced, and then he saw the reality of those actions. Why he tried so hard not to acknowledge the daring emotions.

Hikaru wasn’t sure he’d ever seen Mortis move so fast, but before he could really understand what happened the winged yearling was as far away from him as he could get, and he had buried his face in his wing so Hika couldn’t see him. Immediately he felt a deep burning regret, he’d known better than that. He’d hurt his friend by doing exactly what Hanako did to him. Hika swallowed hard and sunk in on himself as he prepared to flee. He thought he’d ruined everything and then Mort spoke softly.

His iron gaze lifted, hesitant, as he suddenly felt empty and ashamed of himself. ”Mortis, I could never hate you,” his words were soft as the Armada heir went on. Dark tipped ears and kohl lined eyes lowered as he spoke, mentioning Hika being separate from Mort. Was this what a broken heart felt like? Stupid , stupid, Hika. He shouldn’t have tried something so ridiculous and he should have killed any feelings he had when they first sparked. This was a path that was possible and the sooner he accepted the fact the sooner he could get on with his life. ”I’m sorry,” he whispered again, struggling to bite back his emotions as he tried not to let the tears fill his eyes or voice. ”I’ll go wherever you want me to.” He was small compared to Mortis but in that moment he felt incredibly tiny.