Special Delivery!

"Speech"

There was a flash of panic that thrilled through her as she saw Beat grow still, she closed her eyes for a moment silently praying he'd not turn her away. A single question dropped from his lips and she a brief flash of indignation passed across her face and she opened her eyes to look at him. "What would you have had me do?" He voice lilted into a desperate frustration. "I am a new Alpha, I never intended for our meeting to end in pregnancy." It wasn't a lie. "It wasn't even my season! I panicked." Her gaze grew a little hard as she spoke again. "Beat you don't know me. If I'd told you what would you have done? Abandoned your pack and joined mine? I'm practically a stranger to you. I had no intention of keeping him from you, but my pack and my family are not like you or yours. Habari would not have been a good place for you." Her tone and gaze softened as she spoke those last words, a hint of real regret creeping into her tone. He had been too good for her, softer and lovelier than could ever be worthy of. He was gentle and kind... and she would never deserve that. "I never meant to hurt you." Her gaze dropped, voice soft. It was true, even if only because in her mind she'd never intended for him to find out.

He told her he couldn't raise a child and the woman nodded slowly, gaze still on the ground and she closed her eyes, screwing them shut tight. What would she do? The boy could not be raised by her, she was not strong enough to simply abandon him but she also knew she could not keep him. Beat wasn't done though. He asked more questions and slowly she opened her eyes to look up at him, hope and pain playing in equal measure in her eyes, the trace of tears in her eyes. She seemed to struggle for a moment, shaking her head before she managed to find her voice. "I couldn't bring myself to give him a name, not when I knew I wasn't going to keep him." To be fair, that was very true, if she'd given him a name... she probably wouldn't have been strong enough to give him up. "He was still drinking milk but I've been giving him meat already, softer pieces, or broken up into water will probably help... if you can't find someone to substitute nursing him. He'll be fine."

Recluse paused for a moment, processing his final question. She finally nodded. "I don't know how often I can visit but I'd like too yes."