my shallow heart

Indigo wondered if his mood was being affected by the endless winter, or if there was something deeper bothering him. The dreary days that blended into the next and the next with no end in sight was certainly taking its toll on the yearling boy. He was like a flower himself, he needed the sunshine to bloom and grow and he felt like he had stagnated with the endless winter. He yearned to have green life around him again, and eventually the boy decided to try his luck in heading southward. The cold hadn’t gotten so bad until the spring returned, and he wondered if he went as far south as he could go if he might be able to find a respite in the chill of the world.

Massive purple paws made huge prints in the snow behind him, it was hardly a couple inches worth of accumulation but Indigo still felt the curse that was the cold. As he walked alone there was another heaviness to his heart that he tried not to accept. He keenly felt the missing presence of Aslatiel at his side. The time they were separate was coming to a close, summer would return and so would he to her side. Indigo knew he had to get through the infinite winter first, and as he walked he wasn’t even sure he would see the sun again. The giant warm ball in the sky or the sunshine of his heart, his sister.

Indy continued south as these thoughts raced through his mind, the boy was uncertain he would ever be relieved. His massive head hung low as he walked, alone he could show how beaten down he felt, and embrace the hopelessness that threatened him but he was unable to show within the delicate inner circle of the Hallows. There were wolves with much bigger problems than he had, and Indigo knew it. But being able to be out here alone he could embrace his inner demons.

A heavy sigh left him as Indigo finally reached the very southernmost beach of Auster, and again he felt disappointment take him. There was still no green here, and it was just as cold as the castle. Though he wasn’t sure he could pinpoint the exact location his feeling of defeat came from, it was still there. Overwhelming and crushing. Indigo furrowed his brows and allowed the emotion to take him. The massive boy lowered himself into the snowy sand as he begged the tears not to fall.