I got this feeling that I can't go back

Elise lifted her head when she heard Iroh enter the den, a smile pulling at her lips despite her sour mood when her sapphire gaze landed on his dark form. It was still a wonder to her how one man could make her so indescribably happy. Sometimes it made her feel ungrateful for ever feeling anything but happiness considering how much he cared for her and made sure she had everything she could ever need. How could she be unhappy when almost all of her far flung dreams had come true? She had a mate who was loving and incredibly handsome who did nothing but cater to her every desire. The only thing left to complete the picturesque life she had dreamed of as a child was a family, but surely that would come in time. The previous season hadn't been successful in that regard for them, but there was still so many years ahead of them to fill this place with pups. So if all of that was true, why was she still having such a difficult time finding her place here and figuring out where to draw joy from outside of Iroh?

She loved how he didn't waste a moment to come and curl his larger form around her own, letting her sink into the curve of his frame as she turned her muzzle toward his to catch the kiss he offered her. She nuzzled into the thick fur of his neck as she buried herself into him, letting the combined warmth of him and the fire drive away the cold that she was constantly running from. "I'd do anything for a warm day," she commented with a chuckle, her voice muffled by his fur. It was meant to be a joke, but there was very much some truth in that statement as well. She wanted very little more than to be able to go out into the world again without fear of freezing solid. She was quiet for a while, just enjoying his presence and letting herself thaw while her mind continued to work and sabotage herself with her own internal doubts and worries.

The last thing she wanted to do was stew in her own thoughts, but without an obvious answer to her problems that she couldn't really describe she didn't really know where to begin to fix any of it. Maybe she just needed something to change up her routine, something to spark some kind of interest... Before she came here she had busied herself with the affections and attentions of others and with just enjoying the world as she moved through it aimlessly, but now that she had to face her own thoughts and form herself into some sort of order and normalcy she was struggling to do that. "Iroh... Do you think you could try giving me some lessons about fighting sometime?" she questioned as she pulled her face out of his fur enough to look up at him. "I've never really tried it, but... I don't know, I think I just need a new task or hobby or something. Something I can work on, if that makes sense."

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