Under Every Rock
04-06-2021, 08:16 AM
My eyes followed the small waves crashing over the surface of the pond as the wind pushed the water to fold over itself, and as the water crashed my thoughts seemed to do the same. Over and over again I would start a line of thinking and over and over again, it would slam into the wall as if something were throwing it there. I groaned, exhausted at my own mental efforts to work up something for Sirus for my bounty, for my alchemical preparations that Mother Nature just wanted to go awry, for the scarcity of prey that I was finding around here and the lack of sleep that burdened me every night. I began feeling my emotions tetter on the proverbial edge and the only remedy for that was a good night's sleep and a full belly. My eyes started to flutter.
'Could it be you're falling into his habits?'
'No. I am not like him.'
'Oh. But you are.'
'No, I -'
'All you need is that one little push to get things started...'
'I won't fall into it. I won't fall into it. I won't.'
'But what if you do? Would you end up in your aged years going mad...?'
'I cant. I mean - I'm working towards... I try so hard to...'
A small warm drop pooled in the corner of my eye and I felt it drop down the side of my face. I couldn't stop thinking about it. No matter how hard I tried...
It was so frustrating.
I was so frustrated.
Sometimes the keys playing in my head were so in tune and I felt the passion broiling deep within my gut to finding a way to prolong what I knew would happen to my mind eventually. Other times though, oh... those were the ones that made me want to crash everything I was working on or develop a poison just for a quick escape. It was a constant tug of war.
My eyes snapped open as I heard a few twigs snap off to the right and behind me. Had I fallen asleep? No... I wouldn't have heard the sounds. My head rose off of the ground and my eyes scanned the area quickly before settling on a figure that was approaching my area of work. I might have overlooked her the first time that I scanned the area for her form seemed to melt into the scattered snow piles that were around the forest floor. Her voice seemed a bit distant, but that could have been a paired effect of the wind and the battle in my head that I just escaped.
My body rolled up onto its paws and I trotted over to my workstation, watching her carefully. I didn't know how I felt about having someone else in my space right now and my hackles responded to that thought.
"Yeah."
I woofed, not really feeling in the mood to be bothered by anyone, let alone an older lady that was just sticking her nose into my area. My mind screamed for her to piss off and go find someone else to have small talk with, causing my shoulders to respond by tensing up, feeling the thoughts seep into my bloodstream. I wanted to be alone damnit. Did i?
I wanted to sulk and at the same time, I did want a distraction. I wanted to feel like shit but I really didn't and wanted to get back to work, no matter how aggravating the elements were being. I wanted to push through.
'...Maybe she can help.' I thought.
Yeah, maybe she could. And maybe this is an opportunity to get more information about what the hell was going on around here. I took in a deep breath, straightening my posture and relaxing my tail against my back legs. My hackles began to settle back down as well while I breathed out. I wasn't concerned about this being a hostile interaction for she didn't seem to be like the beings that I was told about and ironically looking for. That and this ground as far as I knew was fair game. So I had no reason, other than my own irrational ones, to be upset right now.
"I, um, collect things."
Nice work, you eloquent being you.'"Most out of necessity for working on alchemical projects. The rest just out of my own fancy for them."
My tone was even, not quite welcoming but hopefully not abhorrent either. I blinked, looking away from her and walking back over to the log holding all of the items. The little flat disk-like device that I had found back near the field of machines was buzzing loudly, the cause being something internal that was also having it vibrating at different intervals. I picked the glass that I had resting on it up and put it to the side so that I could take a look at the device. My brows furrowed... what the hell was, oh. I nosed it onto the ground and watched it fall. It hit the dirt and immediately made a quick whirring sound before slowing down and going back to its quiet and operational murr. A grin tugged at the side of my maw and I bent down to pick it up and place it back on my workstation. "Heh, sometimes the problem is just that simple." It just needed a kick. "So...uh."
I placed the glass back on the surface of the device and let the liquid inside continue to warm off of the hot plate. "Out to enjoy the wonderful weather we're having today?"
I spoke while idly putting tubes back over the tops of glasses and checking levels of the liquids inside of them. "Or are you over in these parts on a ... special mission?"
I said, lightly teasing the last few words out of my mouth in an attempt to lighten my mood. Fake it till you make it, right?"Speech"
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