It's Over And I'm Fine Again

She pressed closer to him as he spoke softly about the beauty of the night and the place that she had brought him. Indy grinned as she peered down at him, running her tiny paws through his mane as she agreed and leaned her head against his chest. Indigo held her there quietly, wrapping both paws around her shoulders as he held her close. This was what he needed, just simply being together and not being alone in the world like he felt he was for so long. Indy would have found contentment and pleasure in falling asleep like that together, but Duchess shifted slightly to again bring her features to his.

Duchess pressed her lips to his, pulling him to herself and transfixing the boy as he melted into the ground beneath them. He felt the passion behind her affections and he returned the emotions, as he carefully trailed his sharp cat like claws over her own flesh. Sifting between the soft black and violet fur, the natural curve of her body pressed against his more seriously. The way she positioned herself over him created similar pressure within his own massive body. He had yet to truly experience desire beyond the not so innocent kisses he had started with Aslatiel. As his mind struggled to grasp the new sensations Duchess pushed him further.

Indigo was only just accepting the feelings she brought when he felt her body tense and her sweet features pulled from his own. Indigo blinked open his blue eyes as he felt her begin to tremble atop his form. He loosened his grasp but didn’t fully pull his paws from her as she closed her dual toned eyes and spoke a gentle apology. Confusion spread over his features as she explained further, had she said and done this a few months ago he wouldn’t have understood at all. As it was Indy took a long moment to work through her words and the feelings she’d encouraged in him.

”Duchess,” he started softly, trying his very hardest to realize the situation they were in. She was talking about sex, something Indigo hadn’t wanted to explore. After his experience on that patrol with Askan he had more actively avoided any thought or question about it. He knew one day he’d face the challenge but he had been blissfully and willfully ignorant until the first moment of experience touched him. ”Don’t feel like you ever have to do anything for me.” Especially something like this. Kissing and cuddling were one thing but going that next step forward, Indigo was far from prepared for a leap like that.

Indigo aimed to lift his features to kiss her nose more innocently as he tried to chase away the dark feelings that held her. ”Especially…” He paused, grasping for the words. ”I’m not ready for any of that.” Indigo finally admitted, careful not to mention his desire or lack there of, to become intimate because he didn’t even know which it was himself. He wasn’t even certain exactly what he wanted, but he knew at the very least he wanted her smile. ”I just want to see you happy.”