Let you down

The harder Corvus tried to stifle his emotions, to push them deep down where no one could see them, the harder they pushed back, defiant. He felt the tears prick at his eyes and he closed them briefly, as if somehow that might solver everything. A brief moment of darkness, then he'd open his eyes and everything would be fine, Theory would be laughing at him for his awkwardness and they'd continue on and find somewhere to patrol together. But the opposite happened - she leaned forward to embrace him and he felt his chest inflate with pain he'd been trying to avoid. "I'm... I'm sorry," he breathed quietly as he leaned into her. Convicting himself he was allowed to share this with her was more difficult than he expected, but her comforting touch made the tears begin to really flow. He sniffled as he leaned into her, choking back a sudden sob that escaped his throat. "Things have been really hard with Twig but I didn't want to bother anyone. I know everyone has so much going on, with the new pups and all," he started, somewhat shakily. The words suddenly started flowing and he couldn't stop them even if he tried. Theory always had that kind of effect on him. "She was - she was pregnant. She didn't realize it until she lost them, but I can't help but think maybe we did something wrong, that we should've noticed sooner, that-" His words cut off sharply. Everything was always easier in hindsight but letting go of the guilt felt impossible when it had him in a vicelike grip.