Scars without and within

The faintest smile tugged at her lips as he crossed the room to sit beside her and for a moment they were just quiet. It seemed like silence was clinging to them all, even the loudest and most energetic of them all. She could see him trying to keep himself calm and trying to process things as he sat beside her, quiet for a long moment. She didn't try to pressure him into anything. She was just happy to have him there. Her sweet, speckled boy. Eventually he would speak though, mentioning that he thought she might want some company. She smiled softly again and nodded while she continued to swallow back her emotions. It felt as though she was constantly doing that now, constantly fighting to keep herself from falling apart again.

"That's exactly what I wanted," she confirmed softly before glancing away from him to look toward the floor. She gently leaned her shoulder into his, noticing yet again that even sitting he was slightly taller than her. They had grown so much and gotten so big. She liked thinking about how they were when they were tiny pups, just little fluff balls running around the den they lived in back in the Sunset Falls. She leaned her head on the top of his shoulder after a moment, letting her eye close to help hold back the tears that continued to work their way to the surface. It was difficult, but she didn't want to cry any more. Not right now. Not in front of Rudyard.

"If you... If you want to ask anything, you can," she told him softly, still leaving her eyes closed and leaning into him. "I'm glad you weren't there when..." Her voice trailed off, her brows pulling together as she quickly drifted away from the words and instead just added, "But if you want to know anything... I'll tell you. Artorias and Gwynevere were there so you deserve to know if you want." She didn't want secrets among her own children. She wasn't ready to face the rest of the pack yet, but for Rudy she could explain things if he wished it.

"Tamsyn" | "Blue"