Can't leave me behind!

Walk | "Talk" | think

Kotori nodded at the terms of his entering.  “Sure, I understand.” Kotori had no need to roam or play around right now.  This was important.  Dad had left them and he had been clearly upset.  Being the only boy in the litter he had tried to spend plenty of time with his dad, wanting to grow up to be just like him.  They had just lost mom and Az and dad just left the pack.  Anyone could tell dad had been upset at mom and Az’s death which really was the right way to feel.  Kotori was still sorting out his own emotions but what he knew was dad couldn’t just leave them like that now.  Couldn’t Briar’s mom have gone back to the hallows on her own or had a different wolf go back with her?

When he mentioned being the alpha Kotori was only confused for a moment as he went on to explain that Resin had handed the title over. He didn’t appear to be related to Resin by blood but maybe he just took more after a different family member? Or did family bloodlines not matter in this pack for leadership?  Well, that didn’t really matter right now, did it?

“Oh, thanks.”  The mention of loss had Kotoro once more checking his own feelings.  Kotori wasn’t sure of what to answer.  He couldn’t imagine playing right now or even have fun at training but he also wasn’t crying.  He really should be more upset, right?  “I’m ok,”  it was the simplest answer to the question.  Mostly he wanted answers.  “Just,”  how to explain it? “Sorting stuff out.  I guess it doesn’t feel real.”

There, that nailed it.  Mom being dead didn’t feel real.  She’d already been gone and so now she was just more gone?  It was hard to accept the idea she wasn’t just still out there and besides as a boy he wasn’t allowed to get all upset.  Sisters could do that sort of thing, but he was the one male Fatalis kid left in the pack so he had to be strong.  Dad was really strong and he had to be as strong as dad.