This loss feels like a welcome home

Her words were exactly as she intended them to, a slap to the face. Broke her heart. Is that what he had done? He looked at her sat mossy eyes, and realised he still wasn’t comprehending how hard this was for her. She was doing everything she could to keep alive, but somewhere along the line it had started to break her. She was trying to keep them both adrift, and his desperate drowning flails were liable to drown them both.

A small, dark part of him whispered that she should have let him drown before he took them both out with him.

His frustrated sigh was becoming a bitterly familiar sound to him. “Tamsyn. Tamsyn, I do love you, or I could have, but I don’t think I have much more left to go. Too much selfish need. Your right, I am bad for you. Caught between her memory and the desperate light you’ve become for me. I… I need to leave. I need to leave before I drag you down with me.” he painfully, and slowly, unfolded himself.

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