did you ever imagine

What he had done since Zee had died must have kept itself from his face. He thought of how he had attacked Briar, goaded Art into trying to kill him. Of how he had hurt Tamsyn when he refused to leave the place his love had died. All the ways he had shirked his responsibilities as Alpha. All the ways he had failed, failed Deathbelle, failed Zee, and failed his pack.

But he looked at Deathbelle as she admitted to how badly she was doing. He had stopped walking at this point, still and quiet as he looked into the face of the wolf that had once been his entire world. Do you ever wonder what was the point of it all?
Didn’t he indeed.

“There is no sense in a world that would let you love and then take it all from you. No reason, no logic. There is only struggle, and what makes it worth the fight. A friend of mine pointed out to me recently that the last litter of Zee is my responsibility, that they need me. That it is my duty to do what I can for them, despite what I feel. That they are the last of her ” He shrugged, brutal honesty and pain on his face. “Is it enough? Somedays, yes. Others, no.”

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