did you ever imagine

She had been left too many times, far too many times to be able to feel anything anymore. There was a deep emptiness beneath that she couldn’t escape from. They always left her, all of them. The man who stood before her, the one she married, the one she loved, and the men who sired her children. She was so alone in the world. Sirius spoke softly, his words were soft but they revealed the emotions deeper down. The shared sorrow that hung between them. Similar loss of one that was loved. Violet eyes lifted carefully as Deathbelle watched Sirius’s features, the pain in his voice mirrored within his expression. Honestly Deathbelle wished she could strip her children of their father’s name. He didn’t deserve to be remembered within them.

Deathbelle lowered her gaze to Seer’s paws as she reclined back onto her haunches. She didn’t feel ashamed of her thoughts, sometimes she felt herself craving the easy way out, and part of her said he did too. Some days she was living for her young children, some days she could barely live at all. ”The days it's not,” she said softly, fear hinting in her voice. She still felt a fear of death, despite it all the very last moment frightened her. She shook her head, unable to finish her words. Some days it wasn’t worth living at all.