The Proposition
Tam & Ulric
Knight
06-10-2021, 12:51 AM
She could see how much her statement crushed him, she could see him deflate as she ruined his excitement, and guilt twisted at her stomach. She never wanted to ruin her son’s hopes or discourage him, but she never would have lived with herself if she hadn’t said anything. If Artorias had just run off to the Armada and ended up hurt or became a pawn in some madness that Sirius had dreamt up she would have lived with that guilt forever. It was worth ruining his excitement this time in order to try and keep him safe.
He was understandably confused and his questions were ones she had expected. That didn’t make them easier to answer, but she knew he wouldn’t understand. She didn’t really understand herself. ”He was a friend of ours,” she told him quietly, her ears folding back against her head as she gently corrected his statement. ”I… I’d like for him to still be our friend, but…” She frowned, her gaze shifting toward the ground. Why hadn’t she told him or Ulric or any of them about what Sirius had said, what he had done? ”I didn’t want to just… spread around what was going on with him. It didn’t feel like the right thing to do. I told his son so at least his family knows.”
He hesitated with a heavy sigh, feeling as if she was not making any sense or at least feeling as if she was all over the place in her explanation. It was hard to keep her thoughts straight about the whole situation as it was, much less trying to explain it in some kind of sensitive way to her son. He asked about Sirius being dangerous and violent and she frowned, finally bringing her gaze back up to his. I… I don’t think it’s the same kind of madness that took Resin,” she admitted after a moment, still speaking quietly so it stayed between them. ”But just… the way he spoke to me, the way he seemed so sure that Zee was there… It was so unlike him and I just don’t trust his mental state right now. I don’t know how violent or not he’ll be or how stable he’ll be moving forward - whether it was a one time thing or… I just don’t know. It’s the uncertainty that makes me too nervous to say you should go.”
Tamsyn Carpathius
He was understandably confused and his questions were ones she had expected. That didn’t make them easier to answer, but she knew he wouldn’t understand. She didn’t really understand herself. ”He was a friend of ours,” she told him quietly, her ears folding back against her head as she gently corrected his statement. ”I… I’d like for him to still be our friend, but…” She frowned, her gaze shifting toward the ground. Why hadn’t she told him or Ulric or any of them about what Sirius had said, what he had done? ”I didn’t want to just… spread around what was going on with him. It didn’t feel like the right thing to do. I told his son so at least his family knows.”
He hesitated with a heavy sigh, feeling as if she was not making any sense or at least feeling as if she was all over the place in her explanation. It was hard to keep her thoughts straight about the whole situation as it was, much less trying to explain it in some kind of sensitive way to her son. He asked about Sirius being dangerous and violent and she frowned, finally bringing her gaze back up to his. I… I don’t think it’s the same kind of madness that took Resin,” she admitted after a moment, still speaking quietly so it stayed between them. ”But just… the way he spoke to me, the way he seemed so sure that Zee was there… It was so unlike him and I just don’t trust his mental state right now. I don’t know how violent or not he’ll be or how stable he’ll be moving forward - whether it was a one time thing or… I just don’t know. It’s the uncertainty that makes me too nervous to say you should go.”
