The stars in your eyes

Seeing how much his words meant to her and hearing the emotion in her voice as she spoke about how no one had ever told her how they were proud of her or that they were happy she was alive made him grateful that their paths crossed when they had. He knew the feeling through of not being wanted or cared about. It was something he had lived in for far too long and found himself in the arms of wolves that would only use him just in an attempt to make himself believe that they cared. Indigo had changed all of that for him and he hoped that maybe he could help Emersyn begin to feel and see herself differently. Feeling her tail wag and bump against him made his heart swell with love and pride, so indescribably happy over the fact that he could help her feel even just a little happiness. He smiled happily when she snuggled closer to him, his tail curving around her hip as well as he pressed into her larger form, content to just be held and lean into her for as long as she allowed.

When she spoke again she questioned a fact that he had said in passing and his smile faded a bit. Indigo was the only one that knew his whole truth, but Emersyn had shared so much of herself with him it seemed only fair that he could let her in on his past as well. "Well, I... I killed my father," he admitted softly, still keeping himself pressed into her while he spoke. Just as she had given him a short answer he did as well, but he knew that would only barely begin to scratch the surface of explaining it. He sighed and went on, telling her, "My father would lure women in, rape them until he got them pregnant, and then after the pups were born he'd kill the mother. He had a woman he loved that couldn't have pups so he forced her to raise us. There was a lot of us... Probably a couple dozen at least before he stopped finding women to do this with. But... But then my sisters got older and he started raping them instead."

His ears flicked back and a frown pulled at his lips, keeping his head leaned into her shoulder and foreleg wrapped around hers, watching the water flow by as he painted the awful picture of his upbringing. "They were why I got into learning healing techniques and medicines... To patch them up and heal their wounds when he was done with them. One of my half-brothers would help me take care of them sometimes and I started developing feelings for him and I fell in love. We would sneak out to fool around and have sex, but one night our father caught us." He swallowed past a lump in his throat, squeezing her leg a little tighter. "He ripped Cygnus off of me and murdered him and... and in some twisted show of dominance he started raping me."

He tried closing his eyes as he spoke, but that just allowed the image of Cygnus's body to dance on his eyelids so he left them open, staring out into nothingness instead. "I snapped. I killed him while he was taking me. That's... That's what made the rest of my family leave," he told her, connecting it back to the small bit of his past he had told her before. "I think my brothers just left because they couldn't care less, but my sisters... They looked so scared of me afterward even though I had taken care of most of them for so long... After that I started sleeping with anyone and everyone that showed any kind of interest in me. Men, women, it didn't matter... I just wanted to feel something and just... try to erase what he did from me I guess. Or try to. Then I found Indigo and now... Here I am."

Segin Epsilon