Don't Look Through The Curtains

Feeling the scars under his skin only made her inner horrors worse as he gave her even more of a glimpse into his past. Indigo really did find the broken ones, even though she thought with Segin, you would never know. His personality drove you into completely other directions. How could someone like him experience things so terrible? And what kind of monster would treat him that way?

This was different than Indigo. It wasn't bad but, she knew she loved him especially in this moment so being with Segin just felt off. Maybe a little wrong. She made herself believe it wasn't, thinking of the Armada woman and thinking about the bodies they all shared at night in the castle. Thinking of Segin only in these moments, after building up to it. While she had been mostly quiet through all other interactions, she made up for now. The sounds of her through grunts and whines were unmistakable as her pleasure. Her body relaxed only a few movements in when it realized this wouldn't hurt her. It had been this way every time since Draco, only fading as time went on.

-Fade-

She still held onto him close though with a loose grip as they relaxed. Her head gently rubbed into his chest as the aftermath took over her, only while the moments passed it got worse. It always did. Being without Indigo showed just how harmful it was to her now, or in this case Segin. She hid herself into his body until she felt like maybe she should talk about it. Her head pulled back slightly to reveal the silent tears under her eyes, "I..." she hesitated, maybe not sure what Segin would think or how humiliating it would sound had she addressed it. "I feel, empty afterwards. Every time." Indigo knew about the feelings that haunted her in the aftermath, but she had never spoken about them. Instead ignored them and Indigo smothered them with other affections. When she said it out loud it felt degrading, like she was a whore. Physically it felt like that. Mentally, well she should have known better but she was more worried about what the others would think. And it only made her more upset saying it out loud to Segin, her eyes dropping from his face trying to contain herself.

"Duchess"