The past keeps coming back to haunt me

Her kiss was all he needed. Her lips pressed hard to his and he melted into her like she was what he needed to breathe. His forelegs held her tighter as silver eyes slid closed, tasting her lips and tongue against his, every emotion and desire that had been building over the last season building up to this moment. He loved her. Truly loved her, more deeply than he had ever loved anyone else. He poured that into this kiss and he felt the same reciprocated back to him. Her actions spoke volumes and he was hearing her loud and clear. As she tipped back, pulling him down with her, he caught himself with one paw and cradled her across her back with the other, gently lowering her into the plush grasses below.

His eyes found hers as their kiss broke, looking down at this stunningly gorgeous wolf laying across the grass under him. His paw trailed along her side, his claws slipping through soft, silver marked fur. He had been with others, but no one had put such a constant, insatiable lust in him like she had. He had wanted her from the first time they laid together, passing a bottle of wine back and forth, but they had waited and deep down past the desire he was glad that they had. He had learned her heart and soul first and he felt that they were better and stronger for it. She taught him patience - something he sorely lacked before her. The look in her eyes made fire run through his veins and then she spoke the words that he had been waiting to here for so long that he almost didn't believe them.

A lopsided grin pulled across his features as he allowed himself to fully feel the love and desire for Eska that he had been holding back and stifling to respect the boundaries they set. But with her laid out beneath him, purring these enticing words, riding the high of finally telling her how he really felt, it was nearly impossible for him to resist her. He pressed his lips to hers, tasting her for a long moment while his paw slipped under her and wrapped around her waist, holding her body tight to his with a quiet, needy growl rumbling in his chest. Each passing second felt like it might burn him alive and she was his only relief.

His lips eventually left hers, leaving a trail of kisses and licks down her neck and throat as he began to experience her and explore her in ways that he hadn't yet been able to enjoy. The way he held her and showered her in affections spoke to how much she meant to him, treating her like the most precious, special wolf in his life. His kisses continued on past her neck and throat, down her chest, along her stomach. He slowly and savoringly tasted each part of her, every new inch he uncovered taking his breath away. He spent quite a while exploring and tasting the most intimate parts of her with his lips and tongue, his heated silver gaze memorizing her beautiful form in the moonlight while he listened to every sweet sound she made.

Only when he was satisfied did he pull away, swiping his tongue over his lips as he settled himself over her once more, deep, fathomless desire breathing life into his pale gaze. He held her tight to him again, the feeling of her stomach and hips against his own making it difficult to wait even one more moment. But she was worth it. She was worth every single tempting, maddening moment and he didn't want to rush a single second. They had waited so long for this, he wanted to make sure it was perfect. He pressed his face into her neck, losing himself in her scent, as his hips slowly pressed to hers, melting together with her with a pleasure he didn't know was possible, any other thought in his mind immediately falling away and only leaving room for Eska.

- fade -

Even the grass felt like clouds with the light tingles that continued to dance across his skin when all was said and done, laying on his side with her cradled to his chest, occasionally giving her ears tender licks or catching her lips with sweet kisses while he grinned like an absolute fool. The cool night air was actually very welcome in this moment while he caught his breath and came down from the most unbelievable high, letting his paws wander over her sides, back, and hips, marveling at the fact that this gorgeous wolf was his. And he was hers. He kept waiting to wake up from a dream and realize that this was all just a wonderful figment of his imagination, but it never came.

"Eska," he rumbled quietly against her ear after awhile, "We should probably tell my kids about us first, but... After that... Would you move in with me? Come live in my room?" Secretly he was already picking a larger, more grand room in the castle for them both in his head, but at least for now just having her to sleep beside at night would be more than enough. He wanted to make sure they did things right though. She had given him the world and he refused to do anything less than have her be a real part of his family. He couldn't replace his children's mother - or mothers now, he supposed - nor would he want to, but Eska was who he loved and she would be a wonderful role model for them. He didn't just want her to be someone he loved emotionally and physically. He wanted her by his side always. A partnership.

Ulric Adravendi