strawberry wine

Gypsy held onto him tighter as he spoke about his love and loss of Aslatiel. She was still alive, but they were doomed to always be apart like this. A fact that would always cause him pain, but wolves of the band kept him stable. More than that they gave him a real purpose, a reason to be instead of the deep darkness that wanted to swallow him. He knew where his heart resided, there would never be any question, but being able to dedicate himself to Gypsy and the wolves he shared his life with gave Indigo the appearance of completion. However untrue the statement was.

”Don’t be sorry,” he told her softly as he gently traced one sharp claw through her white and wine stained pelt. ”I wanted you to know.” Indigo told her honestly, his voice but a whisper as he lay there in the thick grass. He swallowed back the emotions that were always waiting there at the back of his mind or the pit of his stomach. ”I never really forget.” the words were hardly a breath and he didn’t truly intend to say them outloud. Indigo aimed to kiss her forehead to reassure her, none of this was her fault and she deserved zero blame.

”I hope that we can. We can head North and try to angle ourselves towards the Armada.” He knew by now his niece and nephew were about weaning age, they’d be out and about and causing their mother all sorts of trouble. He felt the familiar ache as he remembered that last little spike of fear that they might have made a child together. ”I’d try to be less sad...” Indigo mumbled softly, almost speaking to himself more than Gypsy as his mind fogged in defense of itself. He couldn’t delve too deeply into the what ifs for fear of being unable to return. There was a bright future of endless possibility but he couldn’t put that forbidden dream behind him.

”You know what would make me happy?” He asked her softly as his voice shifted as he hid the dark hole in his chest. ”Getting these strawberries home and prepared for the honey.” He chuckled lightly, masking what he could for her. She felt like he did, sharing the emotions others gave to him. She suffered enough sadness in her life, Indigo didn’t want to tarnish her progress.

Indigo Arcturus Fatalis